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A friend of mine told me that the best state of a human is the state of the child, the child knows nothing at all a child want’s to learn everything  when the child reaches puberty it begins to becometired of wanting to learn every thing and now wants just learn thngs they are interested on heck that’s why we don’t like to go to school but would rather find outif the Lost gang got out of the Island or did Nathan and Peter Petrelli die or something.

Well what’s the meaning of life we’ll never really know what life is until we are lying in our deathbed or staring at some gun, knife etc. we won’t really see what we’ve been doing all our life until we just did something really stupid or about to, heck I don’t remember any really bad things I’ve done but I know I’ve done them sick things hopefully they will stay there stay at that level, sometimes I just look at everything and say to myself I wish that the darn chaos will happen and everyone will just look at nothing and see everything cause we haven’t seen anything yet heck I really wanna see the meaning of coveting your own life well I’ve been to church and there is the whole meaning of sacrifice and living to die but I guess we all haven’t seen the meaning of anything until we lose it bad.

This is Don’t Ask with nothing talk about. trust me dystopian future is really good

The one dang thing that I’ve always wanted to do was simply to start a war that would turn this dang country into an anarchist and with really bad weather dark skies and hail storms, well realisticaly speaking i’ve always wanted to start a gang, a really powerful one one that would really control everything something like an Illumaniti in the Marvel Universe or the Philosophers in Metal Gear yes something that controls everything. I never really thought that I would form one but maybe join one but the size of my school prevents any of those stuff and my moral values still try to prevent me from doing anything stupid thank God for them. Even though I woul study in a big school I don’t really think I would really get to do it there’s influence and physical capacity to contend with but I’ve been in a bunch of fights and a lot of teasing and teasing back to people older than myself heck my closest friends are 2 years older than me and back then being the youngest of the barkada made me a target for teasing, bad teasing. Well all those experiences made me almost impervious to teasing to people my own age ALMOST, and when that almost became clear to me I started thinking about doing things like beating up the dang idiot who thinks that his mouth is gonna save his face from being pushed to dirty cement wall heck good thing my head keeps telling me not to cause I don’t really like to explain what happened after the ambulance leaves. Well the main reason why I’ve wanted to do these things is simply cause I’m megalomaniacal, we all are. Ever played an RTS and just loved it when the enemy’s base is nothing but ashes heck we all have that feeling search your feelings you know it ehheheheh. But still I can’t seem to do the darn thing